I have overstated my abilities so now I have due work and I just started about two hours ago and I am already having neck pain from sitting down and typing. I shouldn’t have delayed my work nor underestimated the designing work. I am not sure if I will be able to meet the deadline because there is too much to be done and I have other stuff to do. Worst part my lecturer said she expects a lot from my group. I am seriously Taboleh Pakau now. Tomorrow is a big day then I have got an event on Wednesday. That reminds me I have to wake up today at 5 am.
I had a lot of good stuff to say today but I have been hit by stress now. Tomorrow I will sit with my group mate for 3 hours if she isn’t late to finish their part. I wish everyone knew me as this unreliable and lazy person then they wouldn’t depend on me to get their work done. I wish I was careless and absent minded.
We got our last Academic calendar before we part ways. Everything about 2018 calendar is nostalgic. I will write about it soon and my current favourite people. Thinking about next year always makes me melancholic and crave for all the past moments but we have another year to make memories; our last moments together. I always liked leaving places and things but this upcoming year is awfully depressing due to the fact that I will never get to meet these people after we bid farewell unless I or they make an effort to visit each other. The travelling is expensive Oh this is pure sadness. These people are the ones with whom I share my educational philosophies and goals. We have a countdown though 365 days until I leave this place. I am so familiar with the roads and transportation here. I even know my way around the fifth largest mall in Asia.
New place means starting all over again and forming new relationships. It is really sad. I hate to move on or to even think that I have to make an effort to know the new people in my life. My heart will be broken again and again before I find the right people. I will have to learn about the new environment and locality and which train to take and the cheapest and the less time consuming route to my house from malls, supermarkets, field visits, clinics and restaurants.
Sorry I wanted to be positive but how can I when my heart is attached to these people? Why do I have to leave and why do they have to leave? For the better.
The heart is grieving and the eyes are sad but we shall be hopeful that distance doesn’t become a wall between our souls. I shall pray that I don’t forget my effort in building such caring and helpful relationships and I shall pray that when I am hurt I can remember there were people in my life who were extremely kind to me once. Alhamdulillah for everything.
Listen to Beneficial Reminder for sisters to be aware of players and opportunists who take advantage of our noble sisters. By : Ustad Sa’eed Rhana (ﺣﻔﻈﻪ ﺍﻟﻠﻪ) by Sumaiya Bint Abdul Muhit #np on #SoundCloud
I didn’t know a good topic for this post other than this. So my friend commented I am in a good mood. Therefore I will share with you an advice that I gave to myself today. Nevermind lets talk about happy things. Always move on even if other people make you feel like you might not get better than your current circumstances. It took me a year to finally realise that I SHOULD HAVE JUST WALKED OUT LIKE YES I SHOULD HAVE JUST DONE THAT BUT NO I WANTED TO BE PATIENT BECAUSE OTHER PEOPLE TOLD ME SO WHY? I knew better I didn’t fit in the context then why stay? Just leave and do not reply. IF SOMEONE PERSISTS IN THEIR BEHAVIOUR BLOCK WHY BOTHER EXPLAINING NOT LIKE THEY WOULD CHANGE. SUMAIYA LEAVE OHKAY? YOU KNOW YOURSELF BETTER. HOLD YOURSELF WITH GRACE BECAUSE YOU DESERVE THE UTMOST KINDNESS AND RESPECT AND SUPPORT. I WILL AND SHALL STAND FOR YOU. OK bye.
I wanted to share some of my work that I have just completed for our Art learning centre for High Scope Approach.
Don’t allow anyone to steal the colours from your life because you matter.