Loss

Thursday, 13th July 2017

There are certain times that a person feels truly at loss. Today is one of those days. I am writing to you from my couch staring at the dawn light and almost seeing a ray of hope. Sometimes you try several times to fix your own mistake but it doesn’t work. Last night spent staring at the ceiling at my friend’s place who gave me a pillow and a blanket to get through the dark night. My life once so beautifully planned crumbled in just ten minutes and I am really dreading to make the breakfast. I strongly feel like I want to sleep through this entire day. I have had enough of people, misfortune, me trying to fix something and making it worse and most of all no help. 

Personal Story: Sihr (Magic) 

It all started back in the mid of January when I started having nightmares even when I closed my eyes for 10 minutes. I would wake up panting and sometimes fighting to wake up but I couldn’t. I thought it was a medical illness at first but I didn’t want to go visit the doctor so 2 months passed by and it was March. At this point I have started missing classes because whenever I woke up I was exhausted as my dreams took all my energy. I even got warning letters from College and it was an innee struggle that I didn’t share with anyone until this one day I had a question and I needed an answer from a Sheikh or student of knowledge. So I texted my friend and she gave me a bunch of contacts but I was really shy to ask as they were non Maharim. Therefore I asked her to ask on behalf of me but the Ustadh said I should ask instead.

 Anyways after the Ustadh gave his answer to my inquiry I shared with him this issue and for the first time in a few months someone totally got me. He said it was Sihr and gave me a few remedies. One of which I ordered from overseas. He told me step by step what to do and I was intrigued. 

First of all it was hard to believe that someone would do such a thing to me. I asked the Ustadh if he was sure about what he was saying. Ofcourse he was. Anyways he explained to me in details and he said “It seems you injested the magic probably you’re wondering who could be unfortunately this dunya is full of so many envious people.” I was really alert after that. He even advised me not to eat food from others specially who insist me on having them. Actually before all that I shared my problem with my sister and she said” It could be magic.” I just shrugged it off. 

When I shared this with my parents, my Mom encouraged me to order the remedies from overseas. She was extremely supportive but my Dad didn’t believe any of what I told was true even my friends. I wouldn’t blame my Dad for not believing as he was always annoyed with his Mom believing in weird things and people. 

When I started taking the mixture in the morning my head would ache to the point that I would have to lie down so I had to stop because I needed to go to College and do other stuff that required me to be awake. Therefore I started taking them on my off days and then Alhamdulillah in May I recovered even after taking them for a few times. I guess I was blessed as I was really worried but everyday from the mid of Jan 2017 till May 2017 I would have multiple nightmares during the day. I didn’t want to sleep. I was frightened of closing my eyes. I would keep my cellphone away from me because I was afraid I would sleep text. No one understood what I was going through and no one thought it was a big deal but imagine the very thing that was made to put your body to rest starts threatening your very being. Yes I would recite the necessary dhikr before sleep but it was of no help. 

I just wanted to share this story with you  because many of us have little to no knowledge about Sihr. Therefore we never understand when it happens. We visit doctors and they give medicines and they don’t  help. We need to seek help from the Ulema and those who study in their circles.